The Funeral

I thought I'd had all my "first" experiences as a deaf/hearing person but yesterday I attended my first funeral since going deaf. Two things stood out for me. First, I couldn't hear a thing, not a single word, second, I wasn't sad mostly because I couldn't hear anything! I couldn't hear the lovely things that were said about the deceased person, I couldn't hear it when the speaker choked back their tears (usually the thing that sets me off crying at a funeral), I couldn't hear people sobbing, and I couldn't hear the hushed discussions at the end of the funeral. It just wasn't the same. I hope that people don't think that I'm unfeeling, without the sensory input of sound my emotions are not as aroused as they once were, hmm.